What have I gotten myself into?

That.......was what I was thinking yesterday. 

What have I gotten myself into?  Who am I kidding?  The last time I did this walk I only lasted one day and it was a horrible day.  I could not even walk the whole 32km.  I got swept 2 or 3 times.  The end of the day I was in tears because I felt that I had failed everyone that supported me, made donations, and most of all, the cancer patients.  Deep down I knew that the walking wasn't the important part, but that I raised over $2,000 for cancer research and treatment. That was the most important thing.  My team reassured me that there was nothing wrong with being swept, and that I raised the money.  I suppose that is true.  I couldn't help though feeling a huge amount of disappointment in myself. 

After that experience, I didn't walk in the 2012 or 2013 walks.   I didn't feel that I could do it. 

When I registered to do the 2014 walk, I felt so optimistic.  I am going to be able to do this.  I'm a lot healthier than I was in 2011, and I have a year to train and raise the money.  

I started off well, walking a minimum of 5km a day.....and I even started jogging.  Well I haven't done any significant walking since Saturday.....it's now Thursday.  I mean I have even been driving my son to school.  I feel so lazy this week, and that is what brought me to the title of this post. 

This..... is what am I thinking today?

What am I whining about?  I've done this walk before......I have seen the people that have done this walk.  I've seen people extremely out of shape do this walk.  I've seen women with cancer and in the middle of chemo do this walk.  I have seen a woman who is 100 years old do this walk.  I am an average build, healthy 38 (soon to be 39) year old woman.  There is NO reason that I can not do this.  I have a year to train.  I am entitled to some lazy days or weeks.   So next week is a new week, and I will get back on track.  I CAN DO THIS!